How was this a year ago?! This photo is from the final days of my “breakup” with San Diego. I say it that way for a lot of reasons...but the biggest of all was it was time to “grow on”. The last 365 days have been nothing short of a wild variety of transformation and change...and a lot of grieving.
It is strange when life as you know it begins to inevitably fade into a figment of our imagination.
(AKA: daily life molding into a memory.)
It happens everyday, but we notice it most with big visible changes. 🎈
I miss having the ocean as a backyard sometimes. I miss the hell out of my dog and our early morning ocean walks or sunset strolls. I wouldn’t mind a proper SoCal burrito when I have a horrible suomalainen krapula every once in a while.🙃 Thankfully the digital age keeps my SD brothers and sisters close (along with everywhere else I’ve called home) and it will always be there for me to visit 💛
For everything else, I’ve had a hard time at times, but overall...everything truly is so perfect. Even if I’m not getting much sunshine these days, I know it’s better for my fair skin anyway😜. And for my Riley Jo, she is happy as a clam in KC with grandma (for now). When I made my big move, it was a verrry systematic process spread out over several months that all took action exactly a year ago. So, I had a lot of time to feel ALL the feels while my neurosis revved into high “moving” gear.
I remember talking to a friend about wanting to go to Finland for/from my heart and not my head wanting to impulsively make a change.
She eased my guilt for leaving the life I’d created by reminding me I was going TOWARDS something/somewhere/someone, not running FROM anything. She couldn’t have been more right on point ✨
This all just got me thinking, no matter where you are in time or space...you take yourself with you.
Even when all the things (stuff) that gives you a (false) sense of identity gets left behind... Even through all the changes and stages, you still get to BE YOU.
Every damn experience has made each of us the individuals that we are ❣️
I just think that’s pretty cool.