This past year has been one of challenges and transition for me. I left a Situation that was very toxic, moved 2.5 hours away from everything that I’ve ever known, my son left for the military, and I was diagnosed with an unruptured brain aneurysm. All within a few months. Heading into it...I didn’t think I would have the strength to get through it all and at times I was sacred af. Yet one by one...each of those battles was fought and won. I did a lot of thinking, a lot of stepping outside of myself and looking back in. Most of all, a LOT of healing. One of the things about adversity is if you allow, it will close you up, push you in a corner and shut you down. But if you stand up and face it head on..then it will put you in a much different place. Today, I face the final and biggest battle of this “war”. I’m having brain surgery at 11am to correct the aneurysm. How do you even prepare for something like that? For the last several weeks I’ve been getting my affairs in order, writing letters, a will, instructions for how to take care of the things for my kids- doing a lot more thinking getting a really good perspective on life. I am happier, stronger and more at peace than I’ve ever felt! 😊 You know when you can look back at stuff that almost broke you and see why it was necessary, and be grateful that it happened, you are in a good place. 🙏🏻 This morning- I am not fearful. After all I have been through in my life- there is not much that scares me anymore. My Achilles’ heel is my kids, and I want to be there for them...but if this is my last morning, then I’m OK with that. I’ve lived more than my share. I’ve loved and felt love and for that I am so grateful. One thing that I do know- is if the Lord allows me to get through this surgery ..my life will have an entire new meaning. It already does right now, but if I get to “pass through this next gate” it’s going to be WIDE OPEN.
My surgery is at the University of Maryland radiology center today, and a few people asked why I just didn’t spend the night in Baltimore. I knew that IF this was my last morning that even getting up at 4:30am and driving 2.5 hours was worth this beautiful sunrise ❤️ prayers please